Happy National Running Day!

I run because... 

for myself

for the little girl who calls me mommy

for my emotional/phsycal health

to feel powerful

to feel Free

to know I have no limits until I choose to stop

to regain focus on my day

to rethink all the questions i don't have answers to yet

to weigh 199.9 lbs

for my husband to feel hips and not belly

I run.. 

happy

angry

sad

crying

excited

tired

sore

thankful. 

Blessed.

Down -45 lbs! & Owls Head Hike

Happy May! 

First, let me tell you this is happening..

& this

That's right 45 lbs gone FOREVER.

I just usually run, I like my runs they don't only help me phsycally they work wonders on my mental and emotional health. 

BUT...

I need to broaden my view of what I do. 

I'm scared to go to a gym, 

I have no idea what to do with any of the equipment.

I'm going to be giving it a try in the next few weeks. 

What are any of your faves @ the gym? 

I'm trying to slim out my cave man legs, I look like fred flinstone. 

No. joke.

Any tips on slimmer legs? I thought running would start to slim them out- but they just seem harder. 

Hiking weather is here & I couldn't be happier.. 

We hiked Owls Head Mountain this past weekend.. 

Does any one else hike? I'd love to hear about it! 

Daily blog's while I sip my coffee

Ry has been sick, and every and any mommy knows that when their baby is sick,

 their world stops. 

Poor little thing has double ear infection, double eye infection & a throat infection.

My, oh My.

Rylee on a regular day..

Rylee today, after her trip to the DR's..

& to think that girl is STILL smiling. 

I've come to the conclusion, im not a very good blogger.. I like to stalk, I mean read other peep's blogs.. every morning I get to work, load my e-mails, sip my coffee and get paid to read my daily blogs. I get so upset when my 'regulars' don't update daily.. hahahaha. 

I want to be a blogger superstar, but lets be real here.. aint nobody got time for that. 

I'm too lazy to post, I dont have good idea's, I can't remeber to take pictures of my food.. 

womp womp womp. I'll just keep doing my daily reads :)

and damn it, post daily people.. I need something to read during my coffee. 

My FIRST linkup with Holly & Jake

1. People always tell me, how perfect my daughter is. Clearly,  I know this.

2. In the movie based on my life, I want Roseanne to play ME! 

3. Typically, I end up regrettingeating burger king double cheeseburger meals couple times a week :-x

4. I always ask to leave off the toe-mae-toes. sick

5. Kim and Kanye really need to Who's Kim and Kanye? jk...stop filming their life. Kardashions weren't made for tv.

6. My Parents always reminded me that they loved me.

7. Every single day  I tell myself, I like my job.. I like my job.. I like my job.

8. This one time in College  I went to 2 for 1 tequilla night and wrote on my ex boyfriends vehicle drivers seat with sharpie... ahhh to be young, dumb, and drunk.

9. My grossest habit is  eating ranch like its a food group.

10. My latest white lie was when I told my husband I liked his v-neck tshirt.

11. I know all the words to  mmmm-bop. forward, backwords and sideways.

12. When I grow up I want to be I haven't figured that one out yet.. 

13. Sexy time is only if hes not passed out on the couch in front of family guy re-runs with empty snack contairs around him.

14. I will never, ever own a cell phone again!

15. I think it's hilarious when im scrolling thourgh e-cards on pinterest. 

Nice of you to show up, Spring.

Spring has Sprung.. 

the birds are singing,

the dog is shedding,

the kids are itching to play in the mud

and momma is itching to clean this mess of a house.

I am out of my winter funk, I think I have seasonal depresson

or some bull shit... hahaa, no really though. 

I always laughed when I was younger about that.. that shit is real. 

Karma is such a b-tch.

What is everyones fave part of spring?

I think I would have to say, the smell.. 

there is a certain smell that is outside when March rolls around, almost like the crispy smell that autumn has.

I love being able to go some where with the kids and it not taking a friggen hour for them to put on:

coats

boots

hats

gloves

zip up the coats

tuck the pants into the boots

then they have to pee;

and we are back to putting on 

boots

hats

gloves

coats

boots

spring slip on a pair of rain boots or sandals. 

and mommy saves her patience before we get out the door :)

The one thing I HATE about spring is

M.U.D.D

esp when we have dogzilla with monster paws.

What puts the SPRING in your step?

I hit my 40 lb mark!

Ya win some ya lose some, right?

That does not even begin to describe the month that I have had 

from H E double hockey sticks!

But rather then huffing & puffing about everything that went terribly terribly wrong

Let me show you what has gone right..

I hit my 40 lb mark!!!!

I got a raise @ work- they work me SO hard ;)

Day trip to the ice castle!

My daughter knows every word to "beauty & a beat" by Justin Beiber

The hubby & I went ice fishing.. my first time, and yeah I more then 100% wont be back. It was fun.. but not my kind of fun. :)

I need a longer day, any one else feel like this? I work, I run, I hang out with my monsters  kids, cook dinner,  I do bed time, then I melt into the couch with Gossip Girl in my face. 

I guess I could change up my days a bit.. but how much more can a gal do?

I'm so jealous of all these wonder women I stalk on their blogs.. how do they do it?

Until I find out... I guess i'll just keep wishing for more hours in a day. 

First 5 mile run... ever.

‎"The things that we're afraid of are gonna show us 
what we're made of in the end"

 I put my mind to it, and I fucken nailed it! 

Call me old fashion, but I don't map my runs, I don't track my speed

or my distance... 

sometimes I like to just get up & go

I call Saturday & Sunday my "exploring" days, those are my days the hubs is home with the kids so I can just get lost on some back road i've never ran on before. 

I got home, and I was wiped out, I got in the car and drove my run to distance it.. when i pulled back in my drive way and the distance was 5.1

.. I cried. and cried, and cried.

SO PROUD.

The weather has been SO nice and unheard of for January up here.

@ 6am this morning it was above 40 degrees- say whaaaat. 

I'm taking the day off from running today.. no running, just gossip girl and my couch. 

& this girly- 

buy one get one free

I have to give credit to all the mom's who handle a mini wolf pack of children.

I have one full time and my step son who lives with us 75% of the time.

I have no patience, I have no inside voice telling me to 'calm down'

I always thought I was gonna have a handful of kids and be playing baseball at the park with my own little team.... 

NO!

I have one, and that is all I need, and or want. 

End of story.

It was a buy one get one free with my step son,

My husband always has had his son, I met him when he was a year old.. 

He is now going to be 7. 

Don't get me wrong, he is mine, 

I wouldn't trade him for anything (enless..)

I never thought I was going to be the "strict" parent.. but I am!

I don't like yelling in the house, I don't like running inside that is for outside, I enforce the same rules in school, at home. 

Keep your hands to yourself, and listen when an adult talks to you.

Got it? Good.

Well, lately I feel like the wicked witch of upstate new york. 

They are the best of friends, 

and they fight like they are married. 

But they WONT seperate to play, read, take a bath, eat..

Maybe it's just the age? Maybe its my rules?

Do I need to ease up?

So if I stop posting its because im in a closet, pulling my hair out, eating fun size snickers and rocking back and fourth. 

Cheers to 3 & 6 year olds! 

My big 3 year old- Ms Mae!

No words can describe this little girl,

amazing, engertic, beautiful, smart

The list goes on.. 

But, she has taught me something about myself and about the quality of life I want to live. She made me realize I need to get up and move, she made me realize I need to put the soda down and pick up the water, I now take vitimans, I go to the DR's when i'm suppose to, I try to get more sleep. 

She reminded me, I only have one life... I needed to stop being selfish and unaware and start living for the other people that live because of me. 

The best part.. she has NO idea she was the reason for 

such a wonderful life change. 

One day I will be able to thank her & tell her she IS my reason. 

What is YOU'R reason? 

what h20 taught me & a taste of my runs.

What h20 taught me.. 

-you are NOT as hungray as your bottomless pit thought

-it doesn't leave a bad aftertaste like sugary/syrupy drinks

-it makes skin glow (this is not pinterest liesss.. it's truth!)

-peeing more means more time OUT of the office ;)

-it saves you money on your bill @ the restraunt

-its the first step to changing your life to fat->fit

-you can buy all sorts of cute tumblers

 (and your husband cant say anything if you use them all )

-if you have water your germy little kids wont always want to drink it all on you

-and for me, it made something click, it made me realize that my body feels better slowly with little changes.

Cheers! 

I have been running in below freezing tundra friggen weather.. 

I cannot wait until sprinnggggg. 

a girls gotta do, what a girls gotta do. 

"watch me"

I hope everyone had a wonder-FULLL holiday

I thought I would take the holiday time off, don't ask me why.. I know, it makes no sense, I set myself even further back.

I needed some time to STOP working on myself,

if that makes any sense? If not, to hell witcha ;)

I'm back..

I don't really have many 'goals' set for 2013, just a plan..

a healthy plan, not a diet, and not a fad.

I ended 2012, with a taste of what my 2013 will be.

At the end of 2012, when I got on the scale and realized, holy shit if I gain 25 more lbs I will be @ 300 lbs.

I didn't want to let myself go that far..

I couldn't put my finger on how I let myself get to that point.

SO.. I was going to do something about it.

I told my husband, he's heard it a million times..

so he shook his head and said "okay babe"

and I replied, "Watch Me."

I lost 30 lbs.

And i'm ready for more

At the end of 2012 I...

-stopped drinking soda

-started drinking some good ole h20

-got my ass off the couch

-started a racey relantionship w/ Jillian ;)

-started running my flat ass off

What up 2013... immmmm backkkkk ;)