Down in the dumps today.
I can't stand sitting at work watching e-mail after e-mail flood in,
the time hasn't moved since I got here @ 8am.
I want to go home, snuggle my babies &
I'm not sure what got me into this funk, I have been eating great.. the scale has been working on my side lately. The hubs has been VERY supportive on healthy eating and me taking time out for myself, for running. I hope I can get to the bottom of it sooner rather the later.
I turned on Jillian lastnight, and turned her off.. my heart wasn't in it, and hasn't been.. i'm going to stick with running for as long as I can until the winter gets too harsh and then i'll go back in a fucken miserable relationship w/ Jilly boo-boo.
All I want to do is run, I get antsy when the time rolls around to leave work and hit the side walk.. I don't know how this happened.. and I don't know when, but I like it.
The hubs & I split a 6 pack of hard cider the other night & had a nice heart to heart,and he let me pour out my heart and soul about losing weight and finding myself again...
I almost feel guilty that I am taking my time away from my kids, animals, house, husband.. to set out on mile runs... soak in the bath. I have never set so much time away for myself.. has anyone else ever felt like this? I would love to chat and touch base if so...
We went to the top of a mountain to share some ciders & some alone adult time.
cold as hell outside, warm as all in my soul & heart.